Saturday, March 21, 2009

The Surreal Life

Brigham has been home from Afghanistan for three weeks and things still feel somewhat surreal and that feeling has only intensified since returning from Hawaii. Each day has a kind of shapeless, dream-like quality to it as we try to find a new family groove. This feeling is aided by the additional clutter around the house (i.e. his unpacked military bags that we have no clue what to do with) that make it difficult for me to try to get back into a routine of housekeeping. Added to this is relearning how to cook enough food for Brigham. I forgot just how much he can eat. I am so used to cooking for myself and James and throwing out a lot of leftovers each week because we just couldn't eat it all. But now...there are no leftovers! and Brigham asks what else is there to eat! I am also trying to adjust to sharing a bed again. I got so used to having a big bed to myself and I have to admit, the one perk to having a husband deployed while pregnant is having a bed to oneself.

One of the biggest adjustment is to stop feeling like things are back to "normal" when he is gone from the house. I still feel like he is only home for a short time and will soon have to leave again for a long time. So things will be surreal until I can find the new normal.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

i am glad that you are getting to be "normal" (having a full time hubby that is). I bet James especially is loving the daddy time. I know what you mean about having your day to yourself. I have my daily routine and it throws me off when Kent is off. I can just imagine adjusting after a year off... cute photos and miss hanging out :o)